[ He'd take it right now - you never really 'get over' a child's death, and Anya has always weighed so heavily on his mind. ]

Nothing that is fair of me to ask, or my place.

[ Because he wants to ask her to look after his child, but he knows that would be meddling when he doesn't have the right, even if it's what he wants to do, and would place a burden on Rogue that he shouldn't. ]

I haven't seen her in over fifty years Rogue. And the last time I did, she was so small. I don't want to push too hard, but I don't want to lose her again either, even if she isn't mine, she is. I don't know what to do.