[Allison can almost feel that sorrow, that sympathy, and it bothers her just a little, as it always does because she doesn't feel...deserving of it. The world just works a certain way, and she functions within it.
There are some things that simply are. Abiding by them doesn't make her better or worse than anyone...it's her actions in functioning that do that.]
It hasn't quite been a year for me. And it's still easy, it has been since I knew I had the power to do this for them. To fight, to bleed...to kill.
My people will die protecting others, they'll get killed because they value life too greatly to take it. That's why they have me, and that's where the choice comes in. Blood on my hands instead of theirs, preserving their lives and ensuring they'll keep doing good.
[She huffs, looking down at her hands.]
They think I'm an idiot for it...but none of them understand what they really are. Especially the one I came on this ship to save.
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It hasn't quite been a year for me. And it's still easy, it has been since I knew I had the power to do this for them. To fight, to bleed...to kill.
My people will die protecting others, they'll get killed because they value life too greatly to take it. That's why they have me, and that's where the choice comes in. Blood on my hands instead of theirs, preserving their lives and ensuring they'll keep doing good.
[She huffs, looking down at her hands.]
They think I'm an idiot for it...but none of them understand what they really are. Especially the one I came on this ship to save.