Once again, in the infirmary

[la_belle_rogue]

[Filtered away from Alpha and Victor]

[She's embarrassed and horrified and more sorry than anyone can know. But she puts on the brave face like a good X-man, and ends up just looking tired.]

Ah'm really gettin' tired of wakin' up in here. Tell me this place gives vacation time.

[Private | Charles]

Thank you. [So much relief and gratitude in those two words.]

[Private | Beatrix]

Ah'm more sorry than Ah can say. Ah understand if ya need ta kick mah ass.

[Private | Kara]

Kara.... Ah'm so sorry.

[Private | Arthas]

That was me. But Ah apologize just the same.

[Private | The Emperor]

Ah'm sorry for what Ah did. Ah couldn't control it. Is yer friend all right?

[Private | Ned]

Tell me he's in Zero and ya destroyed that damn thing.

[Private | Erik, a bit later]

Ah hate ta ask, but... feel like playin' hero for me again? Ah don't think Ah can sleep if Ah'm alone right now.

Comments

[Private]

[deadly_ned]

He's in Zero. I think...Dean, or, or Erik was going to take it apart.

I'm sorry.

[Private]

[la_belle_rogue]

[She really wants Erik to take it apart. He'll make sure it's good and broken.]

So am Ah. Have ya got somethin' more planned for him? Because gettin' a time out is really not good enough. [And she's trying really hard to find a reason not to beat the ever loving fuck out of your inmate.]

Re: [Private]

[deadly_ned]

Yes.

The Zero part wasn't the punishment. It was more of a way to keep him out of the way while we searched for you.

[Private]

[la_belle_rogue]

[A miserable sounding laugh.]

Ah got real easy ta find.

[Private]

[deadly_ned]

I wasn't there to see.

Private

[darknessb4me]

If you want to make it up to me, let me into Zero.

[Private]

[la_belle_rogue]

Feel thankful for that. [It was bad, Ned.] Figure somethin' out for him. Cuz Ah'm doin' the best Ah can ta stay away and not get him sent ta the infirmary himself.

Private

[la_belle_rogue]

[There's a pause.

Because she wants to. She really, really wants to.]

Ah can't.

[Private]

[wedonot]

How are you feeling?

[Private]

[la_belle_rogue]

[She actually considered letting Arthas into Zero to go after Alpha, so....kinda awful, Charles.]

Like a hurricane just tore through mah head. Everythin's still outta place. Gets noisy every now and again. It'll take a while for me ta sort everythin' back the way it was.

Private

[darknessb4me]

I won't hurt him. As far as you know, anyway.

Private

[la_belle_rogue]

Yes, ya will. Ya've got a thing 'bout mind control.

[She winces. She shouldn't have said that. Well, he'd have found out what her powers did sooner or later.]

Private

[darknessb4me]

Who have you been talking to?

Private

[la_belle_rogue]

Didn't talk ta anyone. What Ah did ta ya.... The way Ah used mah powers on ya, Ah basically got a copy of yer mind inside mine now.

Private

[darknessb4me]

...

...Take it out. Now.

Private

[la_belle_rogue]

If Ah could, believe me, it'd be a lot quieter in here. [She taps her temple to illustrate where she means. If only Charles or Jean were more at the level she was used to. Then she could honor the request.]

It's...not like Ah'm thinkin' what you're thinkin' right now. It's more like that last flood only...on a larger scale. They're like memories now.

Private

[darknessb4me]

That's not something you need to... tolerate.

Private

[la_belle_rogue]

It's just how mah powers work. Ah'll meditate for a while, try ta get some organization in mah head, and then it'll get a little quieter. If not less crowded.

Again, Ah'm sorry. Ah'd change it if Ah could.

[private]

[deadliestviper]

[Is Beatrix still angry? Oh, you bet. But is she angry at Rogue? That's a harder question to answer.]

What the hell did he do to you?

Private

[darknessb4me]

No. I'm sorry.

[routemistress]

I'm not usually glad when I don't bump into you, beautiful. You all right now?

[Private]

[deadly_ned]

I already have. He's my responsibility.

private video;

[notdreaming]

[ Kara is furious, but up to date. She knows what happened, even if she doesn't really understand it. ]

That man did that to you. Alpha. [ Man she wants to kick his ass. ]

[private]

[la_belle_rogue]

Ah'm sure he's got a technical term for it, but from mah perspective, he tore apart the structure of mah mind. Ah was overwhelmed by somewhere above a hundred personalities that are stuck mah head.

[She is so angry, so mentally wounded, and she hurt people she cares about. There wasn't an easy way to describe what all he'd find to her. ]

[la_belle_rogue]

Ah didn't kill anyone, so that's a plus. [Translation: No, she's not all right. ]