Once again, in the infirmary

[la_belle_rogue]

[Filtered away from Alpha and Victor]

[She's embarrassed and horrified and more sorry than anyone can know. But she puts on the brave face like a good X-man, and ends up just looking tired.]

Ah'm really gettin' tired of wakin' up in here. Tell me this place gives vacation time.

[Private | Charles]

Thank you. [So much relief and gratitude in those two words.]

[Private | Beatrix]

Ah'm more sorry than Ah can say. Ah understand if ya need ta kick mah ass.

[Private | Kara]

Kara.... Ah'm so sorry.

[Private | Arthas]

That was me. But Ah apologize just the same.

[Private | The Emperor]

Ah'm sorry for what Ah did. Ah couldn't control it. Is yer friend all right?

[Private | Ned]

Tell me he's in Zero and ya destroyed that damn thing.

[Private | Erik, a bit later]

Ah hate ta ask, but... feel like playin' hero for me again? Ah don't think Ah can sleep if Ah'm alone right now.

Comments

[Private]

[deadly_ned]

He's in Zero. I think...Dean, or, or Erik was going to take it apart.

I'm sorry.

[Private]

[la_belle_rogue]

[She really wants Erik to take it apart. He'll make sure it's good and broken.]

So am Ah. Have ya got somethin' more planned for him? Because gettin' a time out is really not good enough. [And she's trying really hard to find a reason not to beat the ever loving fuck out of your inmate.]

Re: [Private]

[deadly_ned]

Yes.

The Zero part wasn't the punishment. It was more of a way to keep him out of the way while we searched for you.

[Private]

[la_belle_rogue]

[A miserable sounding laugh.]

Ah got real easy ta find.

Private

[darknessb4me]

If you want to make it up to me, let me into Zero.

Private

[la_belle_rogue]

[There's a pause.

Because she wants to. She really, really wants to.]

Ah can't.

Private

[darknessb4me]

I won't hurt him. As far as you know, anyway.

Private

[la_belle_rogue]

Yes, ya will. Ya've got a thing 'bout mind control.

[She winces. She shouldn't have said that. Well, he'd have found out what her powers did sooner or later.]

[Private]

[wedonot]

How are you feeling?

[Private]

[la_belle_rogue]

[She actually considered letting Arthas into Zero to go after Alpha, so....kinda awful, Charles.]

Like a hurricane just tore through mah head. Everythin's still outta place. Gets noisy every now and again. It'll take a while for me ta sort everythin' back the way it was.

[Private]

[wedonot]

Do you need any help?

[Private]

[la_belle_rogue]

Not sure yet. Ah'll have ta sit down and start sortin' through everythin' first, see if any of the new folks in mah head are gonna be particular problems.

[private]

[deadliestviper]

[Is Beatrix still angry? Oh, you bet. But is she angry at Rogue? That's a harder question to answer.]

What the hell did he do to you?

[private]

[la_belle_rogue]

Ah'm sure he's got a technical term for it, but from mah perspective, he tore apart the structure of mah mind. Ah was overwhelmed by somewhere above a hundred personalities that are stuck mah head.

[She is so angry, so mentally wounded, and she hurt people she cares about. There wasn't an easy way to describe what all he'd find to her. ]

[private]

[deadliestviper]

I see.

[That pain and that helpless anger is so apparent, and Beatrix feels the echoes of it herself. Part of her still wants to pummel Rogue for the betrayal, but now darker designs are forming in her head.]

[routemistress]

I'm not usually glad when I don't bump into you, beautiful. You all right now?

[la_belle_rogue]

Ah didn't kill anyone, so that's a plus. [Translation: No, she's not all right. ]

[routemistress]

...I ever tell you about the rabies epidemic?

[She knows.]

private video;

[notdreaming]

[ Kara is furious, but up to date. She knows what happened, even if she doesn't really understand it. ]

That man did that to you. Alpha. [ Man she wants to kick his ass. ]

private video;

[la_belle_rogue]

[Join the queue, Kara. The line is getting very long. ]

Yeah, he did.

private video;

[notdreaming]

He's the one at fault, not you. You have nothing to apologize for.

[Private]

[wecanavenge]

Stay with me. [It's almost automatic; he took a moment or two before clicking on his voice function to decide.] I was going to look in on you anyway.

[Private]

[la_belle_rogue]

[No need to ask her twice. ]

Thanks darlin'. Mind if Ah head over now?

[Private]

[wecanavenge]

That's fine. I'm here.

[private]

[heisrisen]

You couldn't.

[Unlike most of her respondents, this is not absolution; but it's not disbelief either. It's cold and calm, something like acknowledgement of failure.]